I was a curious person before. I wish to know everything even though it is bad news. I was rather to feel afraid, sad, or disappointed after listening the news rather than i didnt know anything. I don't know since when i have become a coward. A coward that i don't want to know what my students' comments, i choose to not take a look on the paper that was placed on the table. I dare not to know about what is the person doing... Network seems to be a wonderful way to know the news of friends.... but it seems so scare & ungly to me! It is a place that people can talk, do something without boundaries! I hate it! It makes me a coward! Maybe this is what i deserve as i trust people so much but didn't follow His leading. I even lost my direction , where to go, what to do... what i wish the most now is that nothing bad happen on me.... i am not willing to believe that people can behave that way. Pls, dont force me to believe such an imperfection....... Im afraid...